What has your sport and its do-gooders done for me other than involve
themselves in my affairs behind my back, without consulting me and without
my consent?  You were eating the "chips" and making more of a drama about it
than was necessary.

You just assume, by geography and class, that it's a sad, lonely crazy person.

You ought to know the REAL reason I'm disgusted and grieving.  You of all
people.

After all, you purchased the information and shopped
it around to people who don't deserve it.

Let's talk about COLONIZATION -

In doing so, you endangered and imprisoned a family that had made a great
deal of progress.  You keep implying - indirectly - that we ought to 
associate with
you, think about you, or care about you in some way.  To me, that is 
insulting and
colonizing.  But your sport is so right-wing that you do not allow 
people to phrase
it in those terms.  Europe has a far more heinous history of 
imperialism, yet in the
U.S., we are not free to talk about the experience of colonization, 
because it offends
your lovely suburban wife and her lovely white family.  Let's face it - 
she didn't grow
up with an acutely personal awareness of and sensitivity to 
imperialism, and imperialistic
attitudes in the U.S.  My family came here from Ireland in 1928 - not 
during the
potato famine.  Your people hunted and hounded and slandered my grandfather....
because being an immigrant farmer who won't "wash" and "mainstream" himself
is just too darn weird for your little candy-and-popcorn mob buddies.  
I'm fairly
certain that Mrs. Honeybun did not grow up with that experience.  Why 
she thinks
I want anything to do with it is beyond me.

Let's talk about YOUR ATTITUDES TOWARD ORGANIZED CRIME -

We know what white bread people like you say about organized crime in
America.  You say things like, "it will always be with us."  You whisper to
each other about "the mob".  You roll your eyes about "corruption".  You think
that the mob just "comes with the territory" in your business.

What your particular racist KKK mob does in America is violate our 
human rights.
As such, I intend to take the issue to the global stage, since you 
shrug your shoulders
and minimize the "problem" or dress it up in Italian clothing.  All 
Mrs. Baseball knows
about "the mob" is from the movies.  No - these people are oppressors 
and violate
our human rights.  They do it because of race, religion or national 
origin (in our
case).  All you know about are tickets and concessions.  I never bought 
that whole
"mob" thing.  To me it always was the KKK, because unlike you, I didn't 
have a front
row seat to a ballgame.  I grew up having a front row seat to WHAT THEY DO.

I'm tired of my view of the world being subordinated to YOUR VIEW OF THINGS.
You are not the sort of person that ought to have custody of this situation.

What I am doing now with these three years of posts is just laying the 
groundwork
to assure your guilt and complicity.

How dare you collaborate in the imprisonment of someone who is so much
better than you are.

Once again, where are my children?

I don't need the latest update that they went shopping or watched that magic
show on tv last night.  It's unbelievably cruel - is the current U.S. 
government
THIS ineffectual and cruel?

The U.S. government's response to this criminality - in which people's bank
accounts and credit card transactions are monitored, houses are trespassed,
personal information stolen, etc.....is....well, it's nothing.

What that does is create a "Brazilian" economy where undeserving folks like
you get a nice holiday season with their kids and families.  What people
like us, who've devoted our lives to what they think is THEIRS, is punishment
and surveillance.....and denial of the companionship of OUR CHILDREN.

I've warned all parties concerned numerous times that I'm going to make a run
for it.  I have nowhere to go and very little money.  I love how PRINCE 
CHARMING
doesn't consider the fact that I lost my job because of his false promises.

I have not had a job in two years, I have not had health insurance for 
two years.

If the undeserving wives of baseball, who cannot even attend a top 20 
university,
get "set for life" and I do not, then I will not have a happy 
holiday.....ON PURPOSE.

I will gladly go out in the street and bang my head against the 
concrete to prove
that I deserve a decent life and a family MORE THAN SHE DOES.

When you consider that we're coming up on the fortieth anniversary of something
particularly nightmarish (and deeply personal, in my case).....I mean, 
it's just appalling.
You are not me and never will be me, and the fact that you think you 
can drag me
into your "club" just because of the way I look is unbelievably shallow.

Anyone in America can bet their life savings (what is left of it) that 
Ms. Baseball
Wife isn't hurting and crying every day about that anniversary - she certainly
isn't lamenting what it has done to her straight-haired self or her 
family, or she
wouldn't be so undamaged that she can marry into the "Golden Couple" club.

I don't want to be in that club.  I never wanted to be in that club.

I wonder if the wife ever asks herself what a woman in this situation can or
could do.  The answer is nothing.  I yelled and screamed at the rape crisis
hotline.  There really are no escape options for me.  My credit card is maxed
out - I never got reimbursed for all of the times I had to make a run for it
and use money I don't have.  I am appalled that you treat an elite 
college graduate
this way.

I love that you pay no attention to this.  It makes you look like the 
spoiled, ignorant
and unfeeling PR tool that you are.  If help was on the way, why did I 
get sent to
the hospital against my will earlier this year?  Why was I confined to 
a mental ward
for a week without my consent and without the consent of my family?  
Why, when I
complained to emergency room staff about how afraid I was, did they 
treat me like
a hostile crazy person and put me in restraints?  I'll bet you don't 
get that sort of
treatment in a hospital, Mrs. Baseball.  I went to the best university 
I could for a reason -
so that you couldn't hold your ability to afford really expensive 
shampoo over me.
I had an idea of what I was up against - people who hang out at expensive gyms
and who go to fancy restaurants and who get their hair done at 
expensive salons.

I love how you think my brother was eternally crushed because he couldn't be
a ballplayer like your husband.  Apparently every man who doesn't become a
major leaguer is a spectacular failure.  We live and work in a culture in which
we're all held up to that.  It wasn't like that in the seventies.  
Perhaps you should
think about that.

I look at you and I see how you strip victims - especially dead ones - 
of their dignity.
All you see is victimization and "sadness".  The fact is, if you are 
not a victim, YOU DO
NOT KNOW HOW TO REGARD A VICTIM WITH DIGNITY AND RESPECT.  I don't
think you know how to not be condescending to these dead women.

Who is the lady out in San Diego?  Back in the eighties, she was 
squatting out here
and spying on us.  She had a poisonous obsession with me ever since.  
That plastic
surgery lady.  She confiscated a lot of my purchases.  I got raped for 
living in a black
neighborhood and for reading "offensive" literature.  She had a 
vindictive attitude toward
my father as well.  All the while this was going on.....well, you 
oughta know, lady - you
bought it with your undeserved charge card.  Tracking the credit card 
purchases,
the shampoos, the conditioners, the food at the grocery store.  Making 
fun of my clothing
(for most of my life, I have not been able to afford department store 
clothes).  Stealing
from me and my family blind, stealing our taxes.

This doesn't happen to baseball wives like you, does it?  If it did 
happen to you, you would
be too hurt to be sexy for Mr. America.  Why would I want anything to 
do with you, then?


I'm not your charge and I'm not your cause and I'm not your ally.  You 
could never
understand me unless you re-enrolled in a top notch university and 
studied Irish and
European history.  You did not live my life, you have not felt what I 
have felt and have
seen what I have seen. And you can't buy that, lady.  Your position in 
relation to mine is
insulting.  That's one of the many reasons I left my job.  I'm not some 
little victim that needs an advocate. I'm not some little secretary.  I 
have a history.  Those who put themselves in a position
of responsibility cannot buy that.  You have to face the painful fact 
that you cannot
buy what is in a person's soul, or in their memories, or in their mind. 
 Having a lot
of money cannot change you as a person, or give you wisdom and experience that
is out of your reach.

I spent the nineties in and out of hiding.  I was quiet and spent a lot 
of time reading
and learning skills, trying to be "up" to this job that you have 
unfairly saddled me with.
As such, I did not get to marry or raise children like you did.  You 
know, I finally had that
money saved up and was going to go back to school when YOUR car deliberately
rear-ended me.  At that time, I could have used a little of that 
information that your
suburban middle-class self was sitting on.  I spent a good fifteen 
years waiting
for the clouds to disperse.  They didn't.  I got a bogus and fraudulent 
(yeah man,
I've been there) Prince Charming (from YOUR sport, no less), children I 
can never
see (you don't care about them?) - one false promise after another.  I 
also lost my
job and wouldn't burden another employer with this situation.

I'm taking your shallowness and your lack of consideration to Europe, where it
belongs.

I therefore reject your dubious "offer" of a marriage.  Some "marriage" 
that was.
That guy stole my children, signed a three year deal, and turned his 
back on me.
I'm poor, despairing and afraid, and he is just like the rest of you - 
you'll only talk
to someone with a certain position in society or a certain bank balance.

I got a deliberate car crash and the loss of my money, the invalidation 
of my education,
an inability to get a job, more false promises about being reunited 
with my children,
false promises of get-aways and vacations......all the while, the media 
consumes me
in some second- or third-hand capacity.  I haven't seen any  of those 
"promises" made
good.  I don't expect your myopic self to care about me, but YOU ARE 
DOING THIS TO
MY LITTLE CHILDREN.  Those children, by virtue of the way they look, 
are going to
have to deal with things that only their biological mother can explain 
to them.  YOU
have created this situation.  Maybe you don't care about people like 
me, but you are
currently also guilty of child cruelty and child abuse.

Let's not forget the KKK's old trick : post as a gay, post as an Irish, 
post as a Jew.

As in:  "well I disagree with you and I have an Irish name."

Larry, it's horseshit.  How about I post as a Klan member next time?

Why bother responding to me?

Hey - by the way, how's your hamburger eating, tape-making, box-set hording
dad, Mr. Cream Cheese Sandwich?

Do you really think I post these things to get a response?

BTW, "troll" is an outdated word whose usefulness expired in 1997 or so.
You still seem to think that being a troll is a bad thing.

Cyber-forgery and sniffing etc. are and ought to be a Secret Service concern -
if you read their website.

Don't bother replying next time.  This thing isn't posted so that you 
can reply to
it.  It's posted

1) in case something happens to me

2) to make baseball and everyone in and around it look like a cruel, racist ass

That means I do not expect a response.

These posts are here for one reason alone : in hopes that some of them
will fall into the hands of MLB or the alleged father of my children and
give them the "deep hurt" they deserve.  It is my intention to prove 
negligence.

I love how you think every usenet post is there in expectation of a response.
These posts are not FOR YOU, the usenet audience - silly.  I'm stuffing the
archive in order to hurt baseball.

On 2007-11-27 02:56:59 -0600, Do you hate the Irish? 
 said:

> 
> What has your sport and its do-gooders done for me other than involve
> themselves in my affairs behind my back, without consulting me and without
> my consent?  You were eating the "chips" and making more of a drama about it
> than was necessary.
> 
> You just assume, by geography and class, that it's a sad, lonely crazy person.
> 
> You ought to know the REAL reason I'm disgusted and grieving.  You of all
> people.
> 
> After all, you purchased the information and shopped
> it around to people who don't deserve it.
> 
> Let's talk about COLONIZATION -
> 
> In doing so, you endangered and imprisoned a family that had made a great
> deal of progress.  You keep implying - indirectly - that we ought to 
> associate with
> you, think about you, or care about you in some way.  To me, that is 
> insulting and
> colonizing.  But your sport is so right-wing that you do not allow 
> people to phrase
> it in those terms.  Europe has a far more heinous history of 
> imperialism, yet in the
> U.S., we are not free to talk about the experience of colonization, 
> because it offends
> your lovely suburban wife and her lovely white family.  Let's face it - 
> she didn't grow
> up with an acutely personal awareness of and sensitivity to 
> imperialism, and imperialistic
> attitudes in the U.S.  My family came here from Ireland in 1928 - not 
> during the
> potato famine.  Your people hunted and hounded and slandered my grandfather....
> because being an immigrant farmer who won't "wash" and "mainstream" himself
> is just too darn weird for your little candy-and-popcorn mob buddies.  
> I'm fairly
> certain that Mrs. Honeybun did not grow up with that experience.  Why 
> she thinks
> I want anything to do with it is beyond me.
> 
> Let's talk about YOUR ATTITUDES TOWARD ORGANIZED CRIME -
> 
> We know what white bread people like you say about organized crime in
> America.  You say things like, "it will always be with us."  You whisper to
> each other about "the mob".  You roll your eyes about "corruption".  You think
> that the mob just "comes with the territory" in your business.
> 
> What your particular racist KKK mob does in America is violate our 
> human rights.
> As such, I intend to take the issue to the global stage, since you 
> shrug your shoulders
> and minimize the "problem" or dress it up in Italian clothing.  All 
> Mrs. Baseball knows
> about "the mob" is from the movies.  No - these people are oppressors 
> and violate
> our human rights.  They do it because of race, religion or national 
> origin (in our
> case).  All you know about are tickets and concessions.  I never bought 
> that whole
> "mob" thing.  To me it always was the KKK, because unlike you, I didn't 
> have a front
> row seat to a ballgame.  I grew up having a front row seat to WHAT THEY DO.
> 
> I'm tired of my view of the world being subordinated to YOUR VIEW OF THINGS.
> You are not the sort of person that ought to have custody of this situation.
> 
> What I am doing now with these three years of posts is just laying the 
> groundwork
> to assure your guilt and complicity.
> 
> How dare you collaborate in the imprisonment of someone who is so much
> better than you are.
> 
> Once again, where are my children?
> 
> I don't need the latest update that they went shopping or watched that magic
> show on tv last night.  It's unbelievably cruel - is the current U.S. 
> government
> THIS ineffectual and cruel?
> 
> The U.S. government's response to this criminality - in which people's bank
> accounts and credit card transactions are monitored, houses are trespassed,
> personal information stolen, etc.....is....well, it's nothing.
> 
> What that does is create a "Brazilian" economy where undeserving folks like
> you get a nice holiday season with their kids and families.  What people
> like us, who've devoted our lives to what they think is THEIRS, is punishment
> and surveillance.....and denial of the companionship of OUR CHILDREN.
> 
> I've warned all parties concerned numerous times that I'm going to make a run
> for it.  I have nowhere to go and very little money.  I love how PRINCE 
> CHARMING
> doesn't consider the fact that I lost my job because of his false promises.
> 
> I have not had a job in two years, I have not had health insurance for 
> two years.
> 
> If the undeserving wives of baseball, who cannot even attend a top 20 
> university,
> get "set for life" and I do not, then I will not have a happy 
> holiday.....ON PURPOSE.
> 
> I will gladly go out in the street and bang my head against the 
> concrete to prove
> that I deserve a decent life and a family MORE THAN SHE DOES.
> 
> When you consider that we're coming up on the fortieth anniversary of something
> particularly nightmarish (and deeply personal, in my case).....I mean, 
> it's just appalling.
> You are not me and never will be me, and the fact that you think you 
> can drag me
> into your "club" just because of the way I look is unbelievably shallow.
> 
> Anyone in America can bet their life savings (what is left of it) that 
> Ms. Baseball
> Wife isn't hurting and crying every day about that anniversary - she certainly
> isn't lamenting what it has done to her straight-haired self or her 
> family, or she
> wouldn't be so undamaged that she can marry into the "Golden Couple" club.
> 
> I don't want to be in that club.  I never wanted to be in that club.
> 
> I wonder if the wife ever asks herself what a woman in this situation can or
> could do.  The answer is nothing.  I yelled and screamed at the rape crisis
> hotline.  There really are no escape options for me.  My credit card is maxed
> out - I never got reimbursed for all of the times I had to make a run for it
> and use money I don't have.  I am appalled that you treat an elite 
> college graduate
> this way.
> 
> I love that you pay no attention to this.  It makes you look like the 
> spoiled, ignorant
> and unfeeling PR tool that you are.  If help was on the way, why did I 
> get sent to
> the hospital against my will earlier this year?  Why was I confined to 
> a mental ward
> for a week without my consent and without the consent of my family?  
> Why, when I
> complained to emergency room staff about how afraid I was, did they 
> treat me like
> a hostile crazy person and put me in restraints?  I'll bet you don't 
> get that sort of
> treatment in a hospital, Mrs. Baseball.  I went to the best university 
> I could for a reason -
> so that you couldn't hold your ability to afford really expensive 
> shampoo over me.
> I had an idea of what I was up against - people who hang out at expensive gyms
> and who go to fancy restaurants and who get their hair done at 
> expensive salons.
> 
> I love how you think my brother was eternally crushed because he couldn't be
> a ballplayer like your husband.  Apparently every man who doesn't become a
> major leaguer is a spectacular failure.  We live and work in a culture in which
> we're all held up to that.  It wasn't like that in the seventies.  
> Perhaps you should
> think about that.
> 
> I look at you and I see how you strip victims - especially dead ones - 
> of their dignity.
> All you see is victimization and "sadness".  The fact is, if you are 
> not a victim, YOU DO
> NOT KNOW HOW TO REGARD A VICTIM WITH DIGNITY AND RESPECT.  I don't
> think you know how to not be condescending to these dead women.
> 
> Who is the lady out in San Diego?  Back in the eighties, she was 
> squatting out here
> and spying on us.  She had a poisonous obsession with me ever since.  
> That plastic
> surgery lady.  She confiscated a lot of my purchases.  I got raped for 
> living in a black
> neighborhood and for reading "offensive" literature.  She had a 
> vindictive attitude toward
> my father as well.  All the while this was going on.....well, you 
> oughta know, lady - you
> bought it with your undeserved charge card.  Tracking the credit card 
> purchases,
> the shampoos, the conditioners, the food at the grocery store.  Making 
> fun of my clothing
> (for most of my life, I have not been able to afford department store 
> clothes).  Stealing
> from me and my family blind, stealing our taxes.
> 
> This doesn't happen to baseball wives like you, does it?  If it did 
> happen to you, you would
> be too hurt to be sexy for Mr. America.  Why would I want anything to 
> do with you, then?
> 
> 
> I'm not your charge and I'm not your cause and I'm not your ally.  You 
> could never
> understand me unless you re-enrolled in a top notch university and 
> studied Irish and
> European history.  You did not live my life, you have not felt what I 
> have felt and have
> seen what I have seen. And you can't buy that, lady.  Your position in 
> relation to mine is
> insulting.  That's one of the many reasons I left my job.  I'm not some 
> little victim that needs an advocate. I'm not some little secretary.  I 
> have a history.  Those who put themselves in a position
> of responsibility cannot buy that.  You have to face the painful fact 
> that you cannot
> buy what is in a person's soul, or in their memories, or in their mind. 
>  Having a lot
> of money cannot change you as a person, or give you wisdom and experience that
> is out of your reach.
> 
> I spent the nineties in and out of hiding.  I was quiet and spent a lot 
> of time reading
> and learning skills, trying to be "up" to this job that you have 
> unfairly saddled me with.
> As such, I did not get to marry or raise children like you did.  You 
> know, I finally had that
> money saved up and was going to go back to school when YOUR car deliberately
> rear-ended me.  At that time, I could have used a little of that 
> information that your
> suburban middle-class self was sitting on.  I spent a good fifteen 
> years waiting
> for the clouds to disperse.  They didn't.  I got a bogus and fraudulent 
> (yeah man,
> I've been there) Prince Charming (from YOUR sport, no less), children I 
> can never
> see (you don't care about them?) - one false promise after another.  I 
> also lost my
> job and wouldn't burden another employer with this situation.
> 
> I'm taking your shallowness and your lack of consideration to Europe, where it
> belongs.
> 
> I therefore reject your dubious "offer" of a marriage.  Some "marriage" 
> that was.
> That guy stole my children, signed a three year deal, and turned his 
> back on me.
> I'm poor, despairing and afraid, and he is just like the rest of you - 
> you'll only talk
> to someone with a certain position in society or a certain bank balance.
> 
> I got a deliberate car crash and the loss of my money, the invalidation 
> of my education,
> an inability to get a job, more false promises about being reunited 
> with my children,
> false promises of get-aways and vacations......all the while, the media 
> consumes me
> in some second- or third-hand capacity.  I haven't seen any  of those 
> "promises" made
> good.  I don't expect your myopic self to care about me, but YOU ARE 
> DOING THIS TO
> MY LITTLE CHILDREN.  Those children, by virtue of the way they look, 
> are going to
> have to deal with things that only their biological mother can explain 
> to them.  YOU
> have created this situation.  Maybe you don't care about people like 
> me, but you are
> currently also guilty of child cruelty and child abuse.