What is wearing you down tonight? Are you afraid to go to sleep because you
might be disturbed with thoughts like, "I should have done this...Why didn't
I do that...I'll never make it...I'll never be any good...Why live?"

Perhaps some of the fiercest battles we wage are with ourselves, yet it's
sometimes hard for us to equate these intense inner churnings and
self-destructive thoughts (perhaps even thoughts of suicide) with what Paul
called another law in his "members" warring against the law of his mind. As
frightening as it is, this is partially what Paul is talking about.

The good news is that Jesus not only died to save us from Satan and sin; He
also died to save us from ourselves - the "old man" or flesh nature which
propels us toward death. As the old nature, fuelled by Satan, rants, raves,
accuses and condemns, the Holy Spirit fights to break in and tell you who
you really are in Him This is the midnight war Paul fought many times when
he said:

"But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind,
and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O
wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I
thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself
serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin." (Romans 7:23-25)

What a relief to know that in Jesus there is even victory over ourselves!
Your new nature in Christ will win. May that truth give you very sweet
dreams.

Heavenly Father, I praise You that in Your Son You have given me victory
over any sinful or destructive thoughts which arise within me...these
midnight torrents of self-accusation and self-hate are not of You. In You I
can overcome. Strengthen me and help me to know that Your Spirit within me
is greater than all power of the flesh in Jesus' Name, Amen.
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